Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Revving up the engine....Waiting for the green light!!!


It is strange…People always say that they are writing down things in a blog. I feel it is a wrong usage. You write things down generally on a piece of a paper. On an internet page, you probably type things in. But, again, the word “write” has got lots of different meanings associated with it. It is not just about writing on a medium. When a person decides to avenge another person, he makes a statement, “Write it down! I will hunt you down!!!!”. But, does he actually write it down? NO…..When a person finally realizes that he is never going to back the money someone owes him, he says “Write it off!!!” But, does he make a note of it? NO. So, it is just a relative usage meant to indicate that you are trying to channelize your thoughts and record them onto some medium, from where it could be easily accessed. So, it is about permanent storage of your thoughts!!!. This blog is also a medium for me to store my thoughts….something I would like to call RAM or Regular Access Memory!!!

When I decided to start a blog, I was contemplating about the topics to write. For me, thoughts are like the huge wall of water applying pressure on the dam, which is my mind. Yesterday, I just put a small hole in the structure to allow the water to trickle through. I am not sure how strong the dam is and how efficient it is in withstanding the pressure of my complex thoughts. As long as it does not rain on the valleys of my disturbed mind, I can expect a steady flow. I hope the weather remains sunny and clear and not dark gloomy with the unforeseen mishaps that happen in my life. With the water coming out in a controlled manner, I hope to irrigate and nourish the fields, which are your minds and ensure a good harvest or in your case, a good reading experience.

The topics which crossed my mind in the first place, were all either too complicated for normal people to understand and appreciate or too weird. The sudden explosion of thoughts had in them, sparks of death, supernatural experiences, magic, Satanism and other extremely negative thoughts. I was sure that my friends would immediately associate it with the dark life I had some years back. But, let me ask them something. How do you differentiate between positive and negative? Is it an action or the result of that action that is negative? Have you ever thought about the dual nature of these two entities, which we call positive and negative?

For example, I remember my friends trying to discourage me from a venture because they felt that I would never be able to do it and that it would be disappointing if I failed. But, on the contrary, the negative strategy of my friends urged me to become more adamant and I did that task better than I expected. Here, a negative action led to a positive result.
Again, my friends used to really envy a person’s bike riding skills and used to praise him about his control and speed. This led to the person feeling proud about his skills and made him overconfident and careless. One small error finally led to a broken ribcage and fractured leg. Here, a positive action led to a negative result. Now, comes the interesting part where we see that it could happen in a parallel way also, where a negative action leads to negative result and positive action leads to positive result. Even though, the entities are two, we have four definite and different combinations.

Let me sign off for the day with a quote…

It is a known fact….
Life is not a pact….
So,Think before you act….
Keep your mind intact!!!

Love & Peace

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Know me...

Hi everyone...

Actions speak louder than words...
But, the pen is mightier than the sword!!!

I am a lost soul in this green planet. Searching for a foothold in this sanitarium that we call our home. Words are losing it's meaning as relations are reduced to mere formalities. Self interest is the order of the day. I am really afraid of making a friend now after a lot of experiences. So, I decided one day that I can make my thoughts my friends....make this blog the stage...and my words my speech....So, you all can read what swirls around in the deep chasms of mind!!!

Love & Peace